English Paper 1 and 2 were fine, Tamil Paper 1 was, okay.
Art paper went horribly like I thought it would
So did Social Studies
I wrote 1 paragraph for question 3b, and nonsense for 3a:(
So this monday is Amath and then on Tuesday Bio and History

Ran errends for mother yesterday
Went to Ikea first, and then Grandmother's house
Then stopped by Chinatown to buy buttons for Emo
So he'll have eyes:D

I think i'm in love with the Twilight soundtrack

English and Art Mid-Years tomorrow
I've done all my prep work, and now I just have to sleep early so I can be awake tomorrow
Thank god for the Amath and Physics consultations
I finally understand everything now
Please let me pass every paper this mid years

And, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PATRICK

If you think you can scream at me all you want
And then pretend nothing happened
You're really, really wrong
One day you'll realise you've been the worst mother on earth
And when you need help the most, I won't be there

Just like you weren't there for me
I hate you

I see another night of six hours of sleep
I've just finished some of the prep work for art
I'm so thankful to Rosie for being my model
She does awesome facial expressions and she let me photograph her:)
Buds was nice today like always, so was the Playback theatre workshop

I watched Twilight yesterday
I read the book, and then decided to watch the movie
And, I'm in love. It's so nice
And when Edward kissed Bella I almost died because it was so cute
Robert Pattinson is so cute, and so hot

I only just knew I had to complete the 2007 and 2008 amath mid year papers by tomorrow
I'm planning on not sleeping today
It's times like this when I think of myself as not a human
With no feelings at all
I HAVE FEELINGS D:

Pogo's attempting to decode my thoughts
:(

If there's two phrases I hate the most, ever
They would be "You're crazy" and, "You're weird".
And those are the two phrases I have to deal with most often

Maybe they didn't mean it
But then again, nobody means stuff like that, so they just say it without thinking
If it's a joke, then it's not really funny
If it wasn't a joke, that congratulations on making me feel terrible

Mayhem Fest 2009 lineup

Main Stage: (Headliners) SLAYER / MARILYN MANSON / KILLSWITCH ENGAGE / BULLET FOR MY VALENTINE

Hot Topic Stage: CANNIBAL CORPSE / THE BLACK DAHLIA MURDER / JOB FOR A COWBOY / BEHEMOTH / WHITECHAPEL

Jägermeister Stage: TRIVIUM / ALL THAT REMAINS / GOD FORBID

Why don't we have these type of things in Singapore
Really:(

I think I've lost all passion in art
I had always thought of it as a subject with no rules, where creativity, passion, and skill was all that you needed
But seeing all the requirements and judging criteria just breaks my heart
I mean, a topic is fine

Give me any topic, and I'll work on it for you
But,when something I truly believe in gets marked down, or manipulated into something I have never done, or would never do
It makes me feel as though what I believe in was never good

It just loses the meaning
It becomes, almost the same as some mass-marketed sheisse
But, because I want the skills
And don't want to draw abstract for the rest of my life
I'll try harder, and work more for this year at least

I remembered this time
Shobini, Angela, Nicole, Nandhini and me were talking
And Shamini was listening, but she wasn't supposed to
Because she's Sec 1, and thus much younger
So I covered her ears for her for most of the time:)

I wanted a story because I was bored
And Nicole wanted to tell ghost stories
And Shobini and I were talking about sex, so we told sex stories
Nicole made up a ghost story and told Angela to continue it
And Angela said after staring at you for a while, the ghost brought you to a bed, and started taking off your clothes
Then about Girls masturbating with test tubes, and guys masturbating with vacuum cleaners

Jai Ho has been repeating, it's such an awesome song
And I was right, these weeks will be harsh
English and Art papers are in 5 days
I passed the Chemistry and Physics class tests, got a distinction for Biology(again:)),
And I failed both Amath (1/20) and Emath tests
Which means, I've got to work really, really hard for mid-years:(
If I see more than three fails in that report card, I'll slash myself untill I have got no more skin.

Seeing you guys, bickering maybe, is funny
And, you all would never guess what I'm thinking of doing

I'm a horrible, dishonest person

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Tell me why I enjoy things like this

Sick, sad, sleeping



(Jai ho)You are the reason that I breathe(Jai ho)
You are the reason that I still believe,(Jai ho)
You are my destiny,
Jai Ho

No there is nothing that can stop us,(Jai ho)
Nothing can ever come between us,(Jai ho)
So come and dance with me,
Jai Ho

We were counting down the months, then the days, then the hours, then the minutes
And one second before we got on the stage, we lifted our hands up to show that we would give it our all
And we did
We played, every note like it was our last
Nothing was left on earth
It was just our conductor, our music, and our orchestra

When it ended
The crowd cheered, and the smiles on our faces made it all worth it
Backstage, and all of our tears flowed
You hugged each and everyone in your reach, because you loved them all
You couldn't say it in words, but you didn't need to
Because everyone understood
That I was proud of them beyond anything

Mdm Nisa spoke to us
Told us how proud she was, and thanked us
Told us everyone loved our performance
Right then, Gold with honours, Gold, Silver, or Bronze, you didn't care
We'd already won

A second before the results, you squeezed the hand of the person beside you
You wanted a gold so badly
Silver
And you cried, worse than before
Till you reached the bus, you couldn't stop
Then on the bus, the speech by our conductor made it better

Its just a piece of paper
I, we, got so much more out of that
But the bus ride was still solemn, no one dared to speak
Angklung had never meant so much to me before
And now it does

I love you, all of you

One more day
One last day
I love you guys, let's show them one more time what Crescent Angklung can do
We'll make their jaws drop to their knees, their knees drop to the floor

In short, we're unmistakably, gold with honours

It had a part to do with the fog and snow outside the window, and part to do with the fact that the electricity was cut, leaving us locked in darkness. When Katy walked into the room in a barely there bathrobe, she looked like a goddess right out of a Greek novel. A flash of cleavage there and a small show of skin on her thigh was enough to make anyone drop whatever she was doing at the moment, just to stare at that gorgeous creation in front of her.

"Baby, baby I missed you,", she sat in front on me on the table and crossed her legs, placing her arms around my neck and kissing me on the lips. I could taste something on her mouth, cherry? She was so perfect. Next to her clean, washed body, I felt indecent. She pulled away and I felt myself following her train of movement, unable to distance myself.

"For what, since I woke up and got out of bed?" I mock-sulked, but snaked my hands up her thighs, stopping at her waist. She didn't protest, we didn't need words. She didn't release me from her hold, neither did I want her to. Katy was so delicate.

Ever so often during our moments of heated passion, I just had to stop, and check that in my excitement, I hadn't hurt her too badly. My stomach curled at the thought of her under me on those silk, satin sheets. Bare, naked, vulnerable. Bodies touching, closed eyes, heavy breathing, our need for oxygen in direct proportion to how close we were to being like filthy,horny lions in a cage. And,

The phone rang.

Fuck. I stretched out my arm and picked up the receiver.

"Hello Ashley, how are you?" I rolled my eyes.

"Hi, mom." Katy snickered. I shot her a dirty look.

"Listen, mom, I'm kinda busy now".

"Busy? With what?" Katy mimed the exact words just as she said it, I put my hand over her mouth and smiled.

"Uhm, rats. There's one here right now on my table," Katy snatched my hand off her face and kicked me in the ribs. My mother made a disgusted sound at the other end.

"Well dear, you get on with that rat problem. Do you want me to drop over and help?" My mother always said stuff like that, but she was terrified of rodents.

"No mom, its okay. I'll manage," I groaned, rubbing my side. I didn't wait for a reply and set the receiver down. Katy smiled sarcastically and walked out of the room, so much for early morning sex on a perfect snowy day.

Dear Teacher,
I can't tell you how badly I want to pass your class
Even if I don't see an A1 there, I just want to pass it
I don't want that position, it's making me so.. I don't want it, really
I'm really, really sorry

I have a feeling the next three weeks will be harsh
And that's probably an understatement
Angklung SYF's in two days, and the gold isn't a want anymore
It's so near a need

One word Fatehah said made all the difference
Believe
I will.

My daily tarot card reading says

Feeling down and letting you go by that feeling is not positive.
You should meet with your inner you, who will take you to high spiritual stages.
It is time to wait, time of memories and to study the projects that are semi-hidden.
There is somebody who is near you, who loves you in the right way,
But you do not pay attention to him.

Speech day went well
Not well, it was better than well
I was sad about having to wake up early
So I woke up at 7 and left the house straight away
Yes, without bathing
I hate to bathe
I was late, so I could'nt meet Nicole:(

So I ended up looking like a ghost because of the stage makeup
And, I had to chase Rekha around the G block, and pull her back to the toilet just so she would wear blusher
She refuses to wear makeup, and Gina had to force it on her
Haha:D
And Anisa and Fatin were really cute because they did'nt want to wear foundation
I helped Shobini and Nandhini with liquid eyeliner, sort of:)

And I helped Nandhini straighten her hair
Only the front, because we did'nt have enough time
The performance was awesome
Keerthana said she saw me, and waved
But I did'nt see her:(

Mdm Nisa likes my bag:D
But she says it looks scary bcause it doesnt have a face
I don't know where to buy buttons, so Emo doesn't have eyes
But, once I do, he will have eyes
Then walked home with Nicole
And we sat outside 7-11 sharing pearly bandung:D

And i'm not going for Buds today, since I have to go for stupid medical checkup
Hopefully i'm unfit, so I don't need to go for OBS:)

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What Cinema Bizarre Song Are You? Silent Scream I was walking in the shadows so nobody cared you smiled at me from the distance and we felt there's more to share All these memories They come back when I'm asleep You've taken my dreams I don't need no fakes around me All I want is you to be with me Here I am All these words have lost their meaning I just hope you hear my silent scream I still hear the distant voices Spreading rumors and lies I took you to my darkest placed So far away from the skies I would charm you We made vows to not let go But where are you now? *I don't need no fakes around me All I want is you to be with me Here I am All these words have lost their meaning I just hope you hear my silent scream*I'm so numb Can't you hear me? Here I am There is something inside That still wants to feelI don't need no fakes around me All I want is you to be with me Here I am All these words have lost their meaning I just hope you hear my silent scream myYearbook.com src="http://assets.myyearbook.com//myb_mini.gif" border=0> Music Quizzes

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I've always thought he was the most rational in the band
But I know it was about time one of them snapped
Fangirls are just not leaving them alone
And the recording of the incident actually showed Tom asking them to leave him alone
And telling them he wanted to go home

I don't believe a word of this
It's Perez Hilton
But I hope it's not true
Ich Liebe Dich, Tom

Bright cold silver moon, tonight alone in my room. You were here just yesterday. Slight turn of the head, eyes down when you said. I guess I need my life to change. Seems like something's just aren't the same. What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit. Because every time I get stuck the words won't fit. And every time that I try I get tongue tied. I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit, like the perfect one word no one's heard yet. Because every time that I try I get tongue tied. I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars, I wonder just where you are. You feel a million miles away. Was it something I said? Or something I never did? Or was I always in the way? Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I know it feels like the end, don't want to be here again.And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again. What it takes I don't care. We're gonna make it I swear. And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again.

Tomorrow's speech day

Depressed, again

PESA today enlightened me, really
I didn't want to go, at all at first
But Mrs Rupa had high hopes on us, and since we were representing the English Department
In the end me and Fatehah went
And I did enjoy it

Other than that, I'm not really enjoying life right now
Two tests tomorrow, Lit and Social Studies
Chemistry due on Friday, thank god we're leaving school at 12
Speech Day's on Saturday
And I've got Playback Theatre in the evening on Sunday, which i'm looking forward to

In case people don't know
From 10.00 pm, I get very annoyed very easily
Since i'm usually asleep by that time
And, I'm really, really impatient
And, I get really jealous, really easily
So if you want to ask me a whole lot of questions, please, don't:(

And,
Bobo's wierd
Bobo's, really, wierd
Bobo's wierder than me

I dragged my face to school today
I did'nt want to go, but I did
And, I did'nt really regret it, it was fun
Lit was fun, with awesome partner
And Emath was fun, with awesome partner and Zehra

And, Emath teacher is super cute
She's really nice, and smiles so funnily
Zehra's awesome, with all the funny things she says
Emath test was, okay
I think, I can pass it, hopefully

Niveetha drew a picture of me
With really, really, really long legs
And a speech bubble that said "I'm emo, and I can't touch my toes"
TRUE D:
I can't touch my toes:(

Sabrina is retarded, she brought her baking glove to class and was pointing on my book
Since the gloves had no fingers, I could'nt see
Sabrina: Can you see me pointing? Can you see?
Untill Mrs Rupa asked us what was so funny, and we told her Emath lesson was funny
But, Lit lessons are naturally funny

And then, was excused from class at 1 for le Speech Day's Rehearsa
I think it went nice:)
I let Angela bite my shirt since she was hungry-.-
I enjoy bullying Rekha:D
I had to wear heels again, so now my feet are, pain
Very pain:( I need foot reflexology:(
If Winter Games did'nt wow those watching, I don't know what will

I love Angklung
Syf's in near a week
We'll make it

I LOVE BOB:)

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Fought with mother in the morning
I could rant on and on, and curse and curse
But i'll only say I have'nt given up in trying to make her proud of me
Although I really cannot do it at the expense of changing myself
Which is probably what she wants

Buds today was nice
Kahheng was late again
Was greeted with a chocolate easter egg from Rosie
She's super cool, and funny
So we played Popeye wants a corner, and some violent rugby-like game
I spent half my time in "Jail"
D:

Then some improv game
What happened was, we were supposed to be writing out the How, What, Where, When, and Why of a scene
So our group, cosisting of Iida, Rohan, Calif, Joshua, and Kahheng decided on pink furry mutant ninja turtles
Then we just sat there drawing until Rosie came, LOL

Walked home with Heyman, Matt, Vic and Dawn
Heyman and Matt took art in O Levels
So it was nice to be talking to them
Anyways, went home and was greeted by a stony atmosphere
So I decided to be stony too
Untill Zara called and we were talking nonsense about gays

Oh, to Zara
Get Well Soon:)

I've been influenced by Jie'r:(

You're too pretty for a guy
For any guy

In other words, I want you all for myself
I'm on Carmen and Shane again

Happy Birthday Gerard
You're my favourite vampire<3

Thank you awesome sitting partner Sabrina, for making me feel much better yesterday when I was sad
And also your funny jokes all the time
And also for the chocolate brownies you baked specially for me:)
You're really really stressed now because of your NCC tests and all
Which you're going to do really well for them
And it'll get better soon, you can do it:)
I Loves Yous:D

I love Herbal Essences Orchid and Coconut shampoo
It smells awesome, and is awesome
Oh, I saw pictures of David Archuleta from yesterday's performance
He was wearing blue
It's my favourite colour
And my favourite shade of blue.
:(

Anyways
Went crazy studying bio with awesome partner
And Zehra joined us too
She came up with this

Ella
Tasted
Mangoes
So
People
Everyday
Live
In
Peace

Which stands for

Enterokinase
Trypsinogen
Maltase
Sucrase
Pancreatic Amylase
Erepsin
Lactase
Intestinal Lipase
Pancreatic Lipase

Nadiah and Me were laughing about that during Bio
Sitting beside her is funny
She has toys all over the place

Oh, and before Speaking Course
Me and Zehra were typing wierd stuffs to Fatehah's MST using her tablet and her IM
And it was really funny
Zehra was flirting non stop and saying stuff like "Meet me at hotel 81"
And the funniest part was when the MST actually said "I know you are Nishan right"
ROFL:)

And, I got back the essay I wrote about Marilyn Manson
And I got a 18/30
I mean, I knew there were mistakes and stuffs
But I could'nt help but to be pissed at Miss Vicky for the whole of English
But I can't help but to feel that she knew I was pissed, so I felt guilty
She's a nice teacher



Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

DAVID ARCHULETA'S BREATHING IN THE SAME AIR WE'RE BREATHING IN
AND I'M NOT THERE TO WATCH HIM
D:
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH:(

I'm supposed to be at home recovering
I didn't go to school today
I woke up in the morning feeling really really messed up
Not exactly sick, just a nagging pain in my head
And a feeling that everything was going to go wrong
So I was at home instead

I realised, how boring TV shows in the morning are
There was, nothing nice to watch
So I spent some time talking to Fatehah
And I finished all my homework as well
So I can sleep at 9 today

Anyways, I had to go to the dentist yesterday
And I was freaking out
Because I hate the dentist, I always get scolded
And it really really did'nt help that Niveetha and Iman and Rekha were scaring me
So to calm myself I was reading this section on sex in one of the magazines
And Niveetha had to steal it for herself and not let me read it either:(

Dentist wants me to get braces
Or else be stuck with my baby teeth for the rest of my life
I don't want braces
Well I want braces, braces are nice
But no, I don't want to talk funny for the next three years, or metal in my mouth
Unless it's a chome teeth, I want chrome teeth

I really really want to watch David Archuleta perform
Really, really, really
It's such a waste to not
Who knows when the next time he comes here will be
Anne smsed me yesterday night asking me if I wanted to meet her at Paya Lebar this Saturday for Jerry's performance
So I said yes:)

And, it's been months
Since I got that feeling that I wasn't going anywhere in life
Of course, I've been chasing fame ever since I was 5 years old
People keep telling me "You're got time"
But no, now or never, I dont care

I found out also that
I'm really, really good at being mean towards people I don't like
And also really good at making people I like, not like them too
I deleted and blocked someone off my contacts list yesterday
Zara knows who
I found it useless to have that person there, so I did

DAVID ARCHULETA'S COMING TO SINGAPORE
TOMORROW
NOT NEXT WEEK, NOT NEXT MONTH, TOMORROW!

I WANT TO GO REALLY BADLY
D:

HE IS SO CUTE

Took the train with Iida today
And talking to her really enlightened me on life in Europe
Since she was born in Finland
She's really an interesting person

Met Zara today, lent her my black jeans
Haha, she's really funny
And Kahheng was incredibly late as usual
We ran in the rain to get there
And arrived soaking wet

When we came in their faces were all :O
Auditions for the July/August production were today
I did, Surprise, The Blueberry play, and Jump
Which was fun, but I really hope I get into at least one
Really really

And, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDAD
When I turn 61, I want to be as fun-loving and as funny as you:)
I hope you liked the flowers
I sat down on the pavement in the hot sun and removed all the thorns from the roses with a pair of nailclippers for you:)
And crazytime with cousins was awesome
Well we're crazy all the time
It runs in the family see

AND, I REALLY WANT A MINICOOPER, BADLY:(



:(

I might have said this before



But really, Gerard's hot

Spent some time doing PBL surveys for the sec 1s and 2s
I'm lucky I don't have it this year
PBL was fun sometimes, but I did'nt really like it
I finally watched the Desolation Row video like Emmy told me too
Really awesome, like she said

I've been lazing around the whole of today
I did a bit of amath
Lovesongs (they killed me) was at the top of Buzznet's Most Played list
It's grandfather's birthday tomorrow
So i'll be going there after Buds

I've been going there every week now
Almost every week
But I don't really mind
Or mind at all

I read the last few posts on my blog
I've been, pissed
But I guess I'm better now
Although i'm much, much better

And, after listening to Panik
I guess I really, really miss someone

Back from Wen Qi's barbque
I really love her dog Troops by the way

I sneezed, and he looked right at me

And I guess I might have drunk too much
Because I really staggered all the way home
Although i'm better now after bathing
Really lucky my mother fetched me from the train station
They's alright with me drinking, which is nice

I've been Thanking God It's Friday since morning
I plan to sleep all day and finish homework tommorrow
But the weekends really seem too short

Sometimes when you've been alone for a long, long time
You start looking at everyone in an entirely new light
And I probably think thats what I'm doing
I won't say it's bad, it's just annoying
But, it's not something i'll lose, anything on

Anyways, career test for CME showed that I could never get a job that needed logical thinking, or that needed me to follow rules and abide by instructions
I got a three for Realistic, and a 5 for Conventional
:D But I got a 76 for artistic, 72 for investigative, and 62 for social

A few suitable jobs for me would be
University Professors
Authors
Museum/Art Curators
Art/Music Teachers
Playwrights
Scriptwriters/Idea Architects
Gallery/Museum Managers/ Curators
Music Producer
Translators & Interpreters

I want to be a curator sometimes
Maybe when I retire
I want to continue working when I retire so I won't become forgetful:D
Or bored.

Oh I found a white hair or Zehra and I helped her cut it off
See Zehra, I told you not to get stressed, not see what happens
But what happened was, I was careless:(
And I gave her a bald patch
More like a spiky hair patch
LOL

During le Social Studies,
Before test

Me: Mr Poon can I go to the sickbay *acting sick*
Mr Poon: *imitates* No, you can't go to the sickbay
D:
And Mr Poon keeps calling Zehra Barbie
Which is seriously funny because it means she's blonde

And, Angela punched me super hard on my boobs, and kicked me on my butt
And it was pain D:
She she did'nt do it just one time
So I smacked her there back and lifted up her skirt:)
She's seriously wierd but seriously funny

I don't want to ever stand in front of Nicole and Angela during angklung
Because they keep doing sick stuffs:(
But they're funny
Oh, and I shared a packet of Potato Chips with Nicole while we walked to Redhill
It was supposed to be Chilli flavoured, but they had not taste
We were conned

I have to do literature now
I have to start my Holiday Homeworks
And the holidays were two weeks ago:)
And I want to watch Heroes later

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GEORG<3