I'm still grateful for everything that makes me happy
Like all the almost simple things like waking up with the sun goes down
Tokio Hotel's Automatic keeps playing on MTV
I still get so proud every time its' being played because they've come so far
I love them.

I've been sleeping at 5am every morning
Life in the dark is good
Both ways, metaphorically and literally
Man, am I depressed.
Will come back when I feel better but the fanfiction ideas are pouring in.

I guess if I'm depressed I should be depressed, but I won't let it hurt the love I have for the only thing that won't fail me, the fandoms.

In this world Alice doesn't exist.

I like dogs.

Seth Clearwater/Jasper Hale

Seth stomped through the mud path leading to the Cullen's house. Normally werewolves couldn't stand the smell of vampires but ever since imprinting on one, the guy had grown to actually like it. He rang the doorbell twice, and thunder sounded above, not a good sign. He could see the lights in the Cullen house flicker on and he sighed with relief as the doorknob rattled and the door opened.

Jasper smiled at the wet Seth and moved aside to let him come in. Seth couldn't hear any other movement in the house.

"Where are the rest?"

"Edward and Emmett have gone out of the state hunting, Carlisle and Esme are in Iceland, and Alice and Rosalie have gone on a shopping trip to Milan."

"So, everyone's out of Forks?" Seth took off his jacket making to put it on the sofa but Jasper took it from him instead, draping it over his shoulder to get it out of the way.

"Which leaves just us both here." Jasper took Seth by the wrist and led him to the fireplace to dry whatever his own hot werewolf skin hadn't. Seth shuddered at the touch, he hadn't gotten used to his icy skin yet. He sat in front of the fireplace until it became too stuffy and he moved to the couch instead. Jasper hung his jacket on the mantlepiece and sat beside him. They both stared at each other, barely flinching until he spoke.

"What?"

"What what?"

"What what what?" Seth scowled.

"You know, when the rest come back, they'll be complaining about a wet dog smell on the couch." Jasper took his hands off his lap and laid an arm around Seth, putting the other one on the arm of the couch. Seth rolled his eyes and looked out the window. The outside was a dull grey, even the trees and the sea were grey.

"You know you want to," Jasper said his annoying sing song voice. God, he thought Edward was the one in the family who could read minds. Seth got up to his knees on the sofa and curled up in Jasper's lap, fitting perfectly in between his legs. He folded his arms and felt Jasper's hot breath on the back of his neck. Even his breathing was annoying.

"You know, I don't get what's so bad about a wet dog smell." Seth's heart skipped a beat. He turned in Jasper's lap and put his head on his cold shoulder, fiddling with one of the buttons on his designer coat. Jasper slid both his hands around Seth's waist, and brought his mouth closer to his ear.

"I like dogs."

That's it. Seth grabbed both of Jasper's hands and wrestled the annoying ass to the ground, pinning him there until Jasper gasped out.

"Poodles! I meant, poodles! I like, poodles!"

"You better." He released the gasping Jasper, but not before giving him a quick kiss, and got off the ground. He grabbed his jacket from the mantelpiece and moved towards the the door. Jasper got off the ground as well and followed him.

"You're leaving? Wait, Seth!" Seth opened the door and stopped, turning to look back at him.

"You're going to leave me here all alone?"

"Well, I don't know, maybe, yes," Seth replied, putting on his jacket and heading out into the gloomy rain. Jasper called out.

"We have umbrellas!" He swore he heard a low growl replying him from the distance, and went back in smiling.

-End-

Werewolf+Vampire Slash.
Not Jacob and Edward, because that would be too obvious
It's Seth + Jasper.
Seth because I think he's the only good looking werewolf except for Jacob in the Twilight Saga movies.
He's being played by Boo Boo Stewart
And Jasper because I like Jasper.

Going Somewhere?

Seth Clearwater/Jasper Hale

Sam wasn't listening, again. When did he ever listen in the first place?

"But, hasn't a male werewolf ever imprinted on another dude? I mean, it's possible right? Leah's imprinted on Mike."

"It's different, Leah's a female. You're a boy, and why the hell would you want to imprint on another male werew-" the older guy stopped, his eyes widening. He rushed forward and put his hands on either arm of the chair Seth was in. Seth was a werewolf, sure but Sam still dwarfed him.

"Seth Clearwater, you're not?"

"No! No, I was just, curious!" Seth said quickly, trying to put as much space between him and the Alpha, who straightened up, still not convinced. He crossed his arms over his chest, narrowing his eyes.

"You do know we can look into your mind when we're wolves, don't you?" Seth raised his hands.

"Honest!" Sam threw his arms up into the air.

"Teenagers. That's why we wanted to wait till you were 17, like we did with Jacob."

Emily had excellent timing, she entered the room right then. As always, Sam was too caught up staring at her pretty face and touching her hair and looking at her eyes, and gross, Seth couldn't go there and not expect to throw up. He grabbed another muffin and snuck out of the house, heading down the path and into the forest.

He pushed past the trees and came face to face with the vampire he'd been waiting to see. Jasper Hale stood in front of him, tall and pale, his skin sparkling in the light, hands clasped in front of him, making him look, elegant.

"What did he say?" he asked, each word perfectly articulated.

"He said it was impossible, and he asked me if I was gay."

"Oh." Seth thrust the muffin into Jasper's icy hands and kept walking. Jasper stared at it, confused, before running to catch up with him.

"Hey, you know we don't eat right?" he said, once again, right in front of Seth, who stopped and glared at him, deciding to try and outrun the annoying bloodsucker. He had already disappeared into the trees. Jasper stared after him smiling and said out loud.

"You know, you can't outrun a vampire, Seth!" He threw the muffin on the forest floor where the bugs soon caught up with it and ran after Seth. Seth called back out to him, laughing, before turning into a wolf.

"You know, you can't outrun a werewolf, Jasper!" He continued till he knew it must have been a mile, before stopping at a clearing and looking back, surveying the forest for movement, there wasn't anyone there. Maybe Jasper hadn't decided to follow him, or it was true, vampires couldn't outrun werewolves.

"Hah."

"Something funny, Seth?" said an all too familiar voice behind him. Seth turned to see Jasper standing right in front of him, for the third time, barely out of breath, and looking just as elegant as he had before the chase. He moved forward, barely altering the forest floor till there was little to no space between the two of them.

Seth moved back, into the sun and Jasper followed, making up for the distance. His skin sparkled again once it touched the sunlight and Seth was tempted to touch it to see if it felt like how it looked, like diamonds. He felt pressure on his hips and wasn't surprised to see Jasper's cold hands there, holding him gently but firmly enough so he couldn't move away again.

"Going somewhere?" he asked, barely waiting for a reply, instead bending down and kissing Seth on the lips. Few things could make a werewolf's pulse quicken, and Jasper Hale was one of them. He straightened up again too quickly and Seth stared as Jasper stepped back, arms outstretched, silently daring him to move closer. The vampire had the most annoying smile on his face as he turned and ran off into the forest, leaving a confused werewolf in his wake.

-End-

In the theatre.

The scene with Jacob and Bella in the car.

Xueling: They will kiss.

Me: No they won't

Xueling:Yes

Me:No they won't

Xueling:Yes

Me:No they won't

Jacob and Bella move away from each other

Me: See!!!

So today I killed civilians, caused a world war and played with a bunny

No I'm kidding, I watched New Moon

Besides the fact that the makeup artist sucked , it was good.

No, it was le awesome.

I'm dying because it was so epic.

It was the opening night today and we watched it

Now, I'll wait for Eclipse

I had a nightmare last night

Normally I love nightmares but this one was about religion so I hated it

As I hate almost everything that has to do with religion

Tomorrow's Thanksgiving, and I'm watching New Moon

I guess I should stay indoors but no, I'm going to watch a movie the Vatican has labelled morally deviant

But, its New Moon

If all kids shows were like this...
I would have had the best childhood
And, I would probably be less disturbed now
Or maybe more creepy
But still.

Exorcist for a one time job

-Years of experience with haunting, and the paranormal

-Able to communicate effectively with poltergeists, spirits, werewolves, vampires and any form of Paranormal Activity. You name it.

-Able to conduct and/or organize exorcisms by phone/real life

-Able to exorcise houses/furniture/pets/humans/plants

-Will be able to rid you of all your supernatural problems

Please call 666 for a consultation.

P.S. I will not take responsibility for any form of death and or casualty that occurs as a result of the proceedings. If anybody asks, I was never there.

There, my resume.

Please hire me.

No actually, I really can exorcise people

I exorcised Fart over MSN yesterday

I shall be contactable at Nishan_nishan@hotmail.com.

Anyway, Buds today was good

Did character work, which was funny

Rosie said we should watch The Craft

So, yes, I'm going to watch it now

Because...I have no life like that....

I just read something that made me so angry, and so disgusted
How dare anyone try to make a fool out of someone like him.
The reason Marilyn Manson wears a light colored contact lens in one eye is in memory of a dog he used to have
And the dog had eyes like that
And how fucking dare anybody say such a thing about him.

It's so sickening

Just because somebody looks or acts differently it doesn't mean that they're evil
Marilyn is far from evil
In face, I can name a hundred retards I know personally, that are more evil than him.
I don't care if you're Bill O' Reilly or some other bloody asshole
If anyone says one bad word about Marilyn Manson, i'll hunt you down myself.

Disgusting, it's just disgusting.

I finished a story summary for another movie screenplay

And this one actually started with a title

It looks good, so I want to work on it further

But as of now its still in developmental stages and I'm betting there are a hell of a lot of grammar errors here.

Vlad.

Male vampire Vlad repeatedly tries to kill himself because he does not want to be a vampire. Using bullets, stakes etc. His assistant Bigfoot assists him but somehow nothing he does works. He gives up and sits by the fireplace, feeling sorry for himself. He screams "I WANT DEATH." Frankensteins monster, Death, comes up to the door with a basket, selling cakes. Bigfoot opens the door for her and asks if Vlad wants any. Vlad buys all of the cakes. While Bigfoot is searching for money Death comes in and explores. She decided to try and put herself in Vlad's coffin to try. Vlad walks over to his coffin and opens it to take his toothbrush and is taken aback when he finds Death inside. He asks her for her name and she says "Death".

Vlad mumbles to himself about finding "Death". Vlad explains to her his unfortunate predicament. She tells him not to die. She gets out of the coffin, gives him the toothbrush and tries to go out of the room, but Vlad calls after her asking if he would help him get over his addiction to trying to die. She promises and when Bigfoot comes back in to give her the money, she declines and gives them the cakes for free.

The next day, Vlad visits Death in her house as she is baking. He tells her about the promise she made and she lets him in, provided he helps her with the baking. He starts rambling about how nice it would be to die and she gets angry and upset, advancing on him with a rolling pin and hitting him on the head with it. She explains that she had died before and proceeds to recall a flashback. She sees herself riding a horse and falling off it into a river, being swept away by the current. She recalls a dark, horrible place filled with muck, sadness and other frightening dead souls. The flashback goes away and the scene returns to her sobbing on Vlad's shoulder.

He asks her what happened afterwards and she says she found herself, days later, alive in a laboratory with electric currents running through her. She talks about Doctor Oblivious, the mad scientist who brought her back from the dead. Vlad shows interest in going to see Doctor Oblivious and she brings him to see Doctor Oblivious, who, along with his assistant Igor welcomes both of them warmly. Vlad tells him he does not want to be a vampire,and if there was a way to turn him back into a human without dying. Doctor Oblivious says that he knows that there is a way to reverse the change, although he does know know what it is unless he can find it in his library.

Vlad and Death leave with a promise from Doctor Oblivious that he will find a way to turn Vlad into a human. On the way home, Death falls down and cuts her knee on a rock. Vlad takes her to a river, where she has a flashback of being swept away with the current and she starts crying, before fainting on that rock and begging him to leave. Vlad drinks the blood from her knee as he can find nothing to wipe it away with, bandages her knee with his shirt, and goes off. A villager walks past and sees Death. Horrified, he runs off to tell the rest of the village.

The frightened villagers agree to kill Death, believing her to be a monster. They break into Death's house the next day and stab her with a pitchfork. An unknowing Vlad comes to visit her, concerned, but finds her near dead. He carries her to Doctor Oblivious' house where Doctor Oblivious takes out the pitchfork and tries to make her better, although her situation is dire. He gives Vlad a vial telling him that drinking the liquid inside it will turn him into a human. Vlad takes the vial home and ponders over it.

He is approached by Bigfoot who asks him what he is going to do with the vial, and if he plans to drink it. Vlad says he does not know, and confesses that he has feelings for Death. Bigfoot tells him to turn her into a vampire and he says he can't because she isn't human, at which point Bigfoot points to the Vial. Vlad runs to Doctor Oblivious' house. He finds Death, and pours the liquid into her mouth. She shudders and goes weak, much near death, and he bites her. She lies asleep for 3 days and then wakes up.

She notices she has fangs, and her fingernails are clear, like glass. She calls for Vlad, who has been sleeping on the floor beside her bed and he tells her what he has done. She asks him why he did not choose to use the liquid on himself and he tells her he wanted her to have it, at which point she asks him what he was planning to do now. Vlad says the only reason he did not want to be a vampire was because he would be immortal, and he would have to spend eternity alone. The reason he doesn't mind being a vampire now was because he finally has someone to spend eternity with.

She asks him who, not believing that it could be her, and he tells her that he wishes to spend eternity with her. They kiss. The time jumps to three days later, when Death is feeling better. Her stitches have fallen off and she looks human. So does Vlad. She thanks Doctor Oblivious and Igor. They move into Vlad's house, and live there with Bigfoot. The ending sees them both walking through the village marketplace and meeting the villager who led to her death, and they both attack him. They drink his blood, before walking off into the sunset together.

-Fin

So anyway, today I was bored
And I was inspired by The L Word,the way Alice made the chart
So I decided to go make one for Disney
Which shows who has dated who, how they are related and whatever, it was sunny so I couldn't go out

Meaning I don't really have a life right now so bear with me.

For example, from this chart you can examine Taylor Swift.
She is rumored to be dating Taylor Lautner, who was rumored to be dating Selena Gomez, who has dated Nick Jonas, who is brothers with Joe Jonas, who has dated Taylor Swift
So what goes around comes around
I think Miley and Joe should date because she's the biggest whore and he's the greatest womanizer in the chart.

Its night now, and its dark

But its raining, meaning I still can't go out.

I guess, immortality has its side effects too

I should stop looking at lightning, its bad for the eyes.

First Marilyn Manson gets hurt, and now you Bill?
Bill, please, never, drive
I'm not saying you aren't a good driver, its just, I don't want you to get into another accident
I love you too much for you to get hurt like that
And Tokio Hotel, what's going to happen to Tokio Hotel if you get hurt, huh?

And your bodyguards, what are they doing
Shouldn't THEY be the ones driving YOU wherever you need to go
Why should you drive?
You're already working so hard, and they make you drive as well
This is fucking horrible, they're horrible.

And, why the hell did Perez Hilton know that you got into an accident before I did?
Who supported who wholeheartedly while Perez Hilton was out there hating your guts with Katy Perry?
HUH?
I've had enough of German rock stars who get blown up and tell random idiots first before telling their own girlfriends.
I'm going to watch the L word

The song titles for the new My Chemical Romance album are out
Yesterday, during Emath I found out Nicole Phua was also a My Chemical Romance fan and she loves them as much as I do
She was at their concert as well, and she has their badge
I have their T shirt, im not that bad.
So anyway the title list for their new album is out

Save Yourself
Still Alive
The Only Hope For Me Is You
Trans Am
Death Before Disco
Kiss The Ring
Black Dragon Fighting Society

Its only seven songs and I hope there will be more
But if there isn't its okay because these songs already look, epic
The first three are like a more obvious form of their songs from Bullets
And the last four are like a punk revival of the 80's, its shocking.
The album doesn't have a title yet, so, that's sad

My Chemical Romance changing through the years is such an inspiring thing to watch
It's almost like watching a person's life after they've turned 13 years old
First with their rookie I Brought You My Bullets, You Brought Me Your Love album, all filled with angst and "I don't care what you think about me"
And then Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge, when they were more sure of themselves, and the songs were more structured and meaningful
It was sort of like, a milestone because they had a new drummer Bob

And then The Black Parade
They took elements from both Bullets and Revenge, and added in the Glam Rock and then it became, awesome
If they were sure of themselves during Revenge it was like nothing they had in The Black Parade
It was like they sealed an entire persona to their band that was so easy to remember and hard to forget
The songs just magnified that.

To put it shorter, My Chemical Romance is one of the best bands ever
And anybody who wishes to mess with them is messing with the wrong rock stars
Their band is like the royalty of Queen mixed with them going all out
I guess they saved my life in a way and I am proud to be in the MCRmy
They're going to be headlining the Soundwave Australian music festival in 2010, why am I in Singapore.
So, My Chemical Romance for the win.

3 hours ago, it was confirmed that there is water on the moon
The poor moon is so screwed now, the mortals are not going to leave it alone
Maybe, just maybe, the mortals should quit searching for survival like wolf packs and realize that all they need is right here on earth
There is nothing out there, you retards, you're just treating everything here like trash

What do your dreams mean You are under attack from demonic forces You are in a battle between good and evil. To decide where this comes into play, think about any personal struggles with religion, family and friends, or whatever else comes to your mind. Myspace Quizzes

Who Loves You? Misery Loves Company Why are you miserable? Or is it that you want to make others miserable? It's one of those I just Know it! That's okay, because someday a very lucky person is going to barge into your life and make you smile!!! Myspace Quizzes

What Are You Most Attracted To? You're Looking for Brains Your cerebral ways tend to be lost on a lot of people, but not someone equally as smart as you are. Your guy/girl needs to be as well versed in ''The New York Times,'' classical literature, and sociological theories as you are in order to have stimulating conversation. Just make sure you know that there is more beyond the books that you might be missing out on-- it's important to pick your head up from those pages from time to time and see what else is out there. Love-Friendship Quizzes

Ultimate Ozzy Osbourne Quiz You Know Your Ozzy WOW!!!! Either you cheated or you really know your Ozzy. You rock and keep on ROCKIN!! Myspace Quizzes

Test ur Vampire IQ Real deal So either your a nerd and learned a lot about vamps or u claim to be one! Myspace Quizzes

What 'Nightmare Before Christmas' Character are You? Jack Skellington You are the Pumpkin King of Halloween Town and all things that go bump in the night. You don't like doing the same thing over and over again and are always looking for something new. You are confident and love Christmas! Myspace Quizzes

I finally watched the entire EMA awards
Of course I was only paying attention to Tokio Hotel, but I'm starting to like U2 and Green Day
I always thought they were cool but now I think they're really cool
Katy Perry didn't say anything horrible about Tokio Hotel
Her grudge of them when they beat her at the last EMAs seems to have faded, for now or for publicity's sake
Cinema Bizarre wasn't there, even though it was Berlin, Germany
They should have been.

Marilyn Manson isn't attending any award shows nowadays
He's going back underground, to his roots
I don't care one bit, whether he gets 10 awards or none at all, he's still the best musician and lyricist ever in my book
And I love him for his music, and I always will, not how much press coverage he receives
They only difference between martyrdom and suicide is press coverage

I didn't go to the Necessary Stage today
I had to wait at home for the stupid M1 person to come with my new SIM card
But he or she isn't even here yet, which is very annoying
But I guess, I deserve it for losing my phone
So now I'm just sitting here with almost nothing to do

I actually slept right in front of Mr Toh during emath and he didn't say anything
I'm used to math teachers giving up on me so I don't mind
Fart and I planned on going to McDonalds for breakfast today after Emath
And then we saw Sarvena so we asked her to come along as well
Fart's such a pedo, she was eyeing little kids
Kids are so gross, such Krises

I'm reading five books a week, and watching all the movies I can possibly watch
It helps with my writing, and Literature
I am going to get the A1 even if I die
My full-length play has been completed, the plot and everything
I haven't beta-d it, and I don't believe in beta-reading your own work
Unless of course I keep away from it for a week and then come back, which I will

I just completed Season 1 of The L Word
That show's just the best, and Shane, Shane's one of the most adorable characters ever
I already watched Season 2 of it up till Episode 11 but I can't find the last 2 episodes
I told myself I wouldn't watch Season 3 until I completed Season 2, but now, I guess I have no choice
Not that I mind, in fact I already know what goes on in Season 2 Episodes 12 and 13

I want to visit Las Vegas when I turn 21

Even though there are the shows and all, I don't see the use in going there before I am 21 because then I won't be able to get into the casinos

Sure, there's Criss Angel and Celine Dion and all the shows, but still

Highly depressing, I like Criss Angel

He's like a mixture of a rockstar and Harry Houdini, very cool

Still, Los Angeles is where all the struggling artists go to try and make it

And I will be one of those struggling artists one day

Yes I will struggle, I told myself I have to suffer for at least one year of my life

And I will suffer because if I don't suffer, I'm screwed as a Director/Producer/Screenwriter

Big dreams, Nishan, big dreams

Sometimes I forget i'm 15.

Emath in the morning was so horrible
I made a bet with Fart, she's funny
If I don't win it I have to get her 10 Kinder Buenos
That woman was talking about Mcdonalds all through Emath
While I, like the good student I am, did whatever scheisse on my paper I understood, gave up on the rest, and slept
Emath was useless actually

Spent the rest of the day with Ger at the Gym downstairs

I missed her, alot, but now I can see her again

I forced her to run, aren't I amazing

We lifted weights, I can actually lift weights, I love it

So we lifted weights and watched TV and started talking

Her dog Jack is almost exactly like Nuggets, the same age, the same, outlook in life
They both eat and sleep all day
And sleep wherever and whenever they want to
Nuggets is sleeping on the sofa right now
What am I supposed to do, sometimes they're just too cute to be mean to

I watched Jennifer's Body
The movie was hot and Megan Fox was hot
I have screenwriting knowledge so I can say the plot was weak and the characters were not developed
What I mean is, they had no depth, no wonder the movie made so little
And, Saw should just have stopped after Jigsaw died
Now, its just blood, not that I mind.

But Jigsaw was a nice old man.
Intelligent, and sad in a way
He was played by a good actor, a really good actor.
If I turn out like that when I turn 60, I won't really mind
I mean, killing people, who would mind?
I don't really need to kill people to drink blood though, it loses its charm one they're dead.

Not everything loses it's charm once its dead, just look at me.
Anyway, I guess anybody who knows me will know
That I really, love pain sometimes, emotional pain or otherwise

I have already died, can you blame me?

Haha, I knew it, Siti posted my reply on her blog

She finds my eccentricity humorous, i'll bite her one day

I'm about 5 minutes late for math tuition

I should wait another 15, I didn't what to go in the first place

Mother was the one who put me in tuition, not me

Its math, the worst creature alive

Even if were dead it would probably come back to haunt me

I'll haunt it back, assholes.

Figure the language out first if you want to read this because it's not for everybody.

Aceasta a fost de trei ani şi încă nu am terminat cu tine iubitoare. Dacă sunteţi jenat. , atunci este vina ta proprii pentru a fi atât de pretentios. Niciodată nu se va opri gândesc la tine, dar aceasta nu înseamnă că mi-am dorit să fim împreună cu tine. I într-adevăr, din partea de jos a inimii mele doresc pentru tine de a iubi pe altcineva pentru că eu sunt bolnav de aşteptare. Mai voi doi muri.

Se pare că unii oameni din lume cred că nimic nu fac ei pot răni mine. Şi dacă ai fi cunoscut pe mine pentru mult timp v-ar şti cine mă refer la momentul Intotdeauna mi-am spus "unii oameni". Te iubesc, să înţeleagă că mai întâi. Du-te la dracu.

I hate kids.

Bill's voice here is so, I can't find an adjective that would do him justice
It's so low and sexy, but then so beautiful
It makes me love him even more
He's too breathtaking to be real.

I've probaly watched this video ten times but still...

Anyway, the day was ruined by Amath, as usual

I went as close to a Mosque as I think I would ever get in my life, since I was waiting for Siti, Ratna and Fart

And then took the long bus ride on Bus 51 to Jurong East with Ratna

We looked at the houses along the way

They were all so nice but still, I will not keep quiet until I get my 37 bedroom castle.

I finally finished The Accidental Vampire, and I got started on Weddings From Hell

The Accidental Vampire was a complete rip off of Twilight, which is so annoying

What am I saying, it was completely brilliant but still, it was a rip off

My dad is buying me a lot of books, too many

But I don't mind, since I don't want to become an nut during the Holidays

Have I gotten started on Holiday Homework? A little.

Well, no, but still, its not the last week yet.

Most of the time, if not all the time, it's other people who don't understand
I've learnt to live with all that, so I'm used to it

I'm the only one I have, so it matters to me when I don't understand

And it's times like these when I want to give up and have it all just end

But then I remember what Gerard Way said

He said "There was a moment in my life when I really wanted to kill myself. And there was one other moment when I was close to that. . . . But even in my most jaded times, I had some hope."

But now isn't not one of those times is it