Saturday, June 19, 2010

Female horror movie villains
They are the products of the male-dominated horror film industry
Most of these female villains are sluts.
Maniacal killers dressed in sexy lingerie because men find that so very appealing
Or if the villain isn't a slut, she's a crazy old lady
It disgusts me

The lack of sex appeal is made up for with the use of fear
That I understand
What I don't understand, is why the crazy old lady never comes up on top
She's always beat down and defeated by a group of men.
Even those slutty, fucking beautiful female villains are always defeated, with the exception of Jennifer from Jennifer's Body

I understand and appreciate sex appeal, but I don't encourage using it to set stereotypes
I know that stereotypes have already been set for female horror movie villains
But these stereotypes must not be supported and encouraged.

Friday, June 11, 2010

It is time, I tell the world the two things I am most afraid of
The first, I am afraid of ever killing something, or someone.
And the second, I am afraid of being the only one left on Earth.
If you laugh and say I'm a dimwit for these things will never happen then you are sorely mistaken

I was just eating a mango and watching the film Daylight on television
And the way I eat mangoes is, I have a knife on the plate and I cut off pieces of it
I eat the skin as well you see
And I kept wondering how it would feel like to kill someone or something with that knife
Plunge it into living breathing flesh, you are aware of all the details I don't need to state them here
Not flesh of mango, flesh of living thing

It became so bad I turned off the television and brought the plate to my room, away from Nuggets should I suddenly do something very serious
I stabbed the fruit a few times, hoping it would help
Then I cut the rest of the fruit and brought the knife out to be washed and placed with the rest of the silverware
Then I abandoned the mango and cried for a while
After which I lit a candle and came online, needing some human communication in my life.

So you see, my mind is very disturbed
The images of murder and homicide in my mind truly never go away
My fascination with death, I quite like it except for one thing
What I don't like about it, and what I am afraid of, is losing control, and actually making those images come true
In which case, I sometimes have to be by myself
I be by myself so I won't cause any harm to myself with my thoughts about hurting others

The second thing is just something I've come to fear
Normally when someone has experienced something far too much, he or she becomes used to it
But I have felt lonely so much, that I fear loneliness
This is something I find very hard to understand and I don't blame you if you cannot understand it as well
My intelligence makes me feel very stupid sometimes.

I fear those two things very much.
But if you do care about me I urge you not to worry
I've grown up with those fears and I have them packed away in a little box that I've placed under my bed
They are my little boogeymen that never come out and leave me alone most of the time.
If they do come out, I will graciously put myself in an institution, and swallow the key.