I had this song as the ringtone to my phone for so long
Honestly, the reason I'm not entirely crazy about the fact that today, October 31st, is Halloween
Is because for me, every day in the year is already like Halloween
So basically, the name is all it is

And the fact that the mortals in the world are filling it with the dark, depressing stuff I actually like today

And the fact that finally, they sell nice stuff in all the stores

I still go around talking to ghosts, and dressing like I just died every other day.

But still, for the mortals,

Happy Halloween

Trick or trick, my treats are not worthy of you all...

We will let you go now

May you all have a not so ghastly year ahead

You wish.

Sure, I didn't dress up as a vampire or even wear fangs
But the fact that for the first time, I watched Michael on a huge screen made this one of the best Halloweens ever.
I never doubted the fact that he was brilliant, and he is.
He performs with such passion and drive
I wish I had that kind of passion for the things I do

I wish they would have shown the 45 degree lean during Smooth Criminal, or the moonwalk during Billie Jean but I don't mind that they didn't.
And his soul is so pure
He knows how to work people, to make them work harder not for him but for themselves
And he's so loving
He's one in a million
Long live the king, I love you Michael.



I never doubted Adam's talent as well
And this song just shows what an amazing artist he is
It's got the perfect blend of his sexiness and his voice
His voice itself is just breathtaking.

And if his first single's already this good, imagine the rest of his Album.
He's set for stardom.

The Angklung performances were fine

I played chess with Sheeraja, and well, she beat me

Also today, we went for the ELDDs blackbox Seven Deadly Sins

We missed Lust and Wrath, which are my favorite sins apart from Envy

But the show was epic

Everyone, including Fart and Renee were awesome actors.

So mother went to meet Ms Shakina today

I didn't go along because I didn't want to

I mean, I don't care about my rights anymore, let them do whatever they want

The report book comments described me as an articulate person, of course, I am very articulate

Most of the time

Failed three subjects for the overall, and Amath is my worst subject, I knew it

Whatever, screw Amath

I want to drop it by next year anyway

I'm more concerned about the fact that I got a B3 for Literature which to me is the worst absolute crap in the world.

I want an A1, I don't care.

Father doesn't know what people learn for Amath

So he asked me, and when I tried to explain to him he still didn't get it

I don't blame him, I spent one year being explained to and I still don't get it

Sometimes, mother is really funny.

Mother: Today I explained to your father the difference between Amath and Emath and finally he knows what it means. Don't confuse him any more.

She's scolding Nuggets now, serves him right

It's raining, very heavily, with lighting and thunder

I love it

It's the perfect weather for, kissing

Alright, I don't know what's wrong with me but it really is

Adam looks so hot here at the this is It Premiere

And his just released Album cover is, epic

He looks so pretty and godly and hot and everything at the same time

I can't wait for November 23rd.

And Bill says he would dress up as Marilyn Manson for Halloween

I love both of them so much

Can Bill get more adorable

Georg wants to be Ozzy Osbourne

Ozzy and Marilyn are both so cool.

Chapter 8.

"What are the qualities that you find most attractive in a guy?" A face formed in his head, breaking through the fog slowly. It was pleading.

"Adam, it hurts..."

"Mr Lambert?"

"What? Oh, yeah I think my new album will come out sometime after the tour ends. We're working on some tunes now and its-"

"Mr Lambert, that wasn't the question." He looked at the young lady in front of him with the microphone. The sickening sensation of embarrassment slowly creeped through him and he felt nauseous. He stammered.

"It, wasn't?"

"Cut, we're done with this interview." Joe stepped forward and grabbed Adam's shoulder, shaking, him out of his obliviousness. The interviewer protested. but Joe shook her off, ready to pull Adam away.

"It's my first day on the job, please, just one more question."

"No, this man isn't ready for one more anything." Adam stood still, refusing to budge. Joe turned and glared at him.

"Adam, come on."

"No, Joe. It's her first day." Joe stopped for a while, and then relented. He stepped towards the young lady and put on a fatherly accent.

"What's your name, dear?"

"Janice."

"Well Janice, look, Adam here isn't in the right mood today. We're going to do the interview a bit later but I promise we'll get it done. I'll call Buzznet up and tell them what happened. Is that okay?"

"I guess so."

"Thank you, dear. Now, if you'll excuse us." Joe grabbed Adam by the elbow and pulled him out of the room, closing the door behind them as they reached the corridor. He looked around and pulled Adam into the fire escape. It was windy, but that's all Adam knew. Everything else was like a blur to him.

Joe was about seven inches shorter than Adam, but his voice could intimidate even the bravest of people. Such was the authority of the manager, in his forties. But he spoke with a gentle, calming voice that immediately took Adam in.

"Look, Adam. You haven't told us, but we know what's going on with you and Bill. I just wanted you to know, we all love Bill and we love that you two are a pair now. In fact we think its the best decision you've made since breaking up with Drake. But you've been distracted all morning and I can't help but to think something's up." He looked at Adam's eyes. They were wet.

"What is it? Adam, you can tell me."

"No, it's, it's nothing. Can we go back to the hotel?"

"Adam. I've known you since Wicked. I know "Nothing" doesn't make you cry." There was a slight pause. The wind blew past them.

"He's hurt."

"What?"

Adam couldn't take it any more. He wanted to scream, to cry out the way Bill must have cried out when he was being tortured in that room. He couldn't stand being here when miles away, his true love was hurting in a bed.

"HE'S FUCKING HURT. HE'S FUCKING HURT AND I COULDN'T SAVE HIM. I WASN'T THERE FOR HIM AND NOW...," his voice faltered, "and now, he's dying and I don't know if..., if he's okay, and...". Adam grabbed onto the railing for support.

Joe looked at the floor for a while before gently putting a hand on Adam's back, wanting to console him but not knowing if it was okay. Adam wept silently, still clutching the railing.

"We'll go back to the hotel, Adam and when we get there, I'm bringing you up to his room."

Adam, as a vampire

Glampire, omg hot.

His fangs, I want him to bite me so bad

When I grow up, I want to be a vampire

Nosferatu's so cute, he's such a funny vampire

I think I like him more than Edward Cullen, or Lestat

Ignore my tagboard for now

Lol, today was funny

Match made Sarvena with one of Fart's friends, it was priceless.

Fart is pining for my love on twitter and here-.-

And Sarvena's a loser, she should grow up

The Runescape message for today is Happy Halloween

Its so appropriate

Mother, Father, I would love it if you two would stop fighting. Father, don't be depressed and mother, please stop pissing father off.

Buds today was so nice, after so long.

I love this animation, the Kiwi bird thing is so adorable
It nailed the trees vertically, and then jumped off the cliff because it wanted to feel how it would be to fly, so cute
The writing seminar today was epic cool
I don't regret going for it at all, in fact it was one of the nicest things I ever done in my life
I learnt, so much, and of course I was inspired like hell as well

So the instructor in the seminar was Woon Chet Choon, who is the president of the Singapore Screenwriters Association and he's written for films and TV
Basically he's one of the coolest people i've ever met
He goes to LA and Hollywood to pitch screenplays and work with other writers
And he's working with some of them on a horror film
He is where I want to be seven years from now

Okay so now I know the basics or writing and story structure and all that
I mean, I'm glad to know the way i've been writing my stories and plays wasn't wrong all these while
My attempts on the full length one are starting to look a little hopeless
I guess, I'm not yet good enough to be like one of those writers who can finish a play in two days
But I will finish this one, one day

They talked about musicals as well
I was listening but I doubt i'll ever compose a musical
I guess I can write the story line and dialogue and plot
I can play music, but I cannot write music to save my life

Anyway, I'm watching Cinema Bizarre videos
Speaking of bands, the Tokio Hotel Buzzworthy interview was so...touching with Bill says he wants a soulmate
I would gladly love to be his of course
I love the Strify+Yu pairing, but in the Cinema Bizarre Calendar videos, Kiro and Strify are spending way too much time together
Well, I don't really mind.

Zehra's gone now
Everyone's going.
I guess, after a while you get used to the fact
I have to, i'll be leaving one day won't I.

Today was like many other days

And, I'll say it again

Sometimes, I hate my race so much I feel so horrible.

But only sometimes, most of the time I don't even care

But after school, I thought Jie'r how to do eye makeup to make her eyes look bigger

I was so happy that I wrote a 10 page long play

But then I researched how long scripts were supposed to be, and they're supposed to be 140 pages long for a full length play

I told Rosie I wanted to do backstage stuff for the Rebellion play and she said she was glad to have me, and also said I was missed because I didn't come for a long time, which was so nice of her

I didn't do well for the end of years so I'm not letting myself audition for a role

I guess, you don't really think about death until you're faced with it
And today, Me, Jie'r and Si hui saw a life ending in front of us
I mean, he was just a pigeon but it was still a life, and we named him Bobby
But he was dying, and twitching, and we couldn't just leave him there alone with no one.
We spent about 50 minutes there by the road trying to get him to eat or drink something, and shading him from the sun

He twitched, and tried to fly and everything but nothing happened
And he faltered so badly
But my heart only broke, really into two when I saw a tear come out of that poor pigeon's eyes
And I realized how much pain he must have been in
He tried to fly but every time he just, nothing happened.

We brought it back to school to get help
And bloody hell, we got the least amount of help we could have gotten
They sent us to wash our hands and just put Bobby in some box
We don't care if we get bird flu, if we did we wouldn't have been trying to help
I just didn't want to see Bobby die.

They took Bobby away in a box
And now I don't know what has happened to him
If he's alive, or gone, or if he's still in pain
We tried out best, but I guess our best wasn't good enough to save him
I just hope we gave him something he probably never got, which is love from people.

Today didn't go as badly as I thought it would

Share a Thought wasn't perfect, but I loved it

Yes, I went in front of the whole school and acted as a doofus doctor with a platypus

But I liked it.

I hated the results

I failed four, I love my life, seriously

Of course, I don't care that I failed Amath and Emath

Since when did I care about math

I studied so much for Biology, and I even sacrificed studying for Emath, and yet

But still, Art

I wanted to pass art so badly, but in the end.

I worked so hard for the painting

Art means a lot to me, and yet I failed

I don't want to drop art

I didn't get a distinction for Literature like I wanted

But I guess, I'm alright with it

English was disappointing

Although, Combined Sciences and Combined Humanities made everything better

And I passed Tamil, for once in my life

I won't say I didn't work hard enough

Because I studied really hard, bloody hell

I don't need to worry about retaining

I'm not okay now, but I guess I will be

I feel better it's all over

Mansions are so cool

And once I move out of Singapore for good and earn my first $10 million, the first thing I will buy is a mansion

Sort of like Edward Scissorhands, only I will have real hands, not Scissorhands

As attractive as Scissorhands seem to me, I think I would rather not

I'm watching Edward Scissorhands now of course

And Edward is such a poor thing, but such an adorable character

All of Tim Burton's characters are so lovable

If only I could come up with characters like that.

I'm in such love
With the song, with the video, with Adam

This is so epic, and his voice is epic, and the movie is going to be epic.

He's so talented it's not even funny

I'm so proud of him

Adam Lambert pebbles.

Normally, I prefer the uncensored versions of songs
But this time, I like the censored version of Arma-goddamn-motherfuckin-geddon
The fading out in the chorus, I wonder why I have never heard that before
The music video is classic Marilyn Manson as well.
For the "Antichrist Superstar" video he replaced the Swastika in the Nazi symbol with a lighting bolt, but now he replaced it with a Money Sign.
Like $.

Oh, I got Ratna into the world of European music
And now she likes Cinema Bizarre
Of course, even though American Music and European music cannot be compared
Sometimes I think European music is more, soulful and less mainstream
And also more sophisticated
But I don't know how to describe it properly, you have to listen to it yourself to find out.

Adam's album is going to be named "For Your Entertainment"
And the Details magazine photoshoot was so heterosexual, but so hot.
The model was so lucky
And the names of his songs, "Strut" omg
Adam just confirmed the fact that he's working with Lady Gaga

The magnitude of this collaboration is, huge

And also, yesterday me and Siti shopped at Jurong Point

And omg, I bought glow in the dark stars

Which were so pretty, but after I realized they only glowed for about 5 minutes, I felt cheated

But anyway, I bought more Jack Skellington stuff

Which is so cool, because the shopkeeper completely understood my pain that its hard to find NIghtmare before Christmas merchandise in Singapore.

Talk with your hips.

Miyavi +Kai

"...and you can't talk for the rest of the day."

"What? NO. I have a photo shoot!"

"Then you should have thought of your photo shoot before getting a sore throat. Now, no more talking if you want to continue with your tour. You can say your last word now."

"Dammit."

"F my Life" he thought, his third day in America and he already was sick. Miyavi hunched over in the chair and started fiddling with his nail polish while the doctor left with a prescription of a drug addict's dream on the table. He wasn't going to take any of those, he was Miyavi, and Miyavi does not swallow pills. He heard footsteps and his bodyguard came into the room.

"You're going to be posing with another guy. The photographer wanted a Yaoi theme to this one. Shall I send the guy in so you can meet him?" Miyavi gave him a thumbs up. He closed his eyes again and went back to dreaming. He heard the heavy footsteps go, and then lighter ones come back in, and the door closing.

"Miyavi?" He opened his eyes and turned around in the chair to stare at the guy that just came in. He was about 5 Feet 8, with blackish hair that covered half his face. The face was ivory white, beautiful eyes, no makeup at all but still, it was the most gorgeous face he had seen. He was wearing jeans and a shirt, with a sweater over it with the words "The Gazette".

"I'm Kai. I will be posing with you. They said you couldn't talk today." Miyavi shook himself, what the hell was he doing? He was used to seeing hot guys. He nodded to a chair opposite him, and Kai sat down on it.

"That's a lot of medicine". Miyavi nodded, still staring. Kai was looking down at the floor, as if the carpet intrigued him, before he moved his eyes up to look back. Miyavi felt a jolt in his stomach, and moved his gaze to the wall instead, not paying any attention to the awkward silence that was so loud.

"Do you want to, practice?" Kai wanted to practice.

"For, the shoot...its, yaoi." Miyavi nodded too fast. Kai stood up from his chair, and moved closer. Miyavi stood up as well. He was a bit taller than Kai, would that make Kai the women in the relationship? Shut up, why was he thinking about that?

"I think we have to get, closer." Miyavi was a doll, he would do anything Kai told me him. He moved two steps nearer, until he could feel Kai's hot breath on him. He was shaking, they both were shaking. Miyavi spoke.

"Do we, do you want to kiss?" Didn't he have a sore throat? He wasn't supposed to speak, but he had to speak, his voice even sounded better when he was sick. Kai looked up, surprised. He felt Miyavi's hand move behind his back and he spoke again.

"Do you want to?"

"Yes."

I meant to post about two days ago but I wasn't feeling like anything

But, the exams have ended, not big news anymore.

First thing I did after the History paper was to turn around and look at Sham's reaction

Which was so funny, and I started laughing, and William started laughing

And we couldn't stop laughing until we reached class

No more F-ing my life during every single paper and crying like hell the night before

But yes, the papers have ended.

I don't feel like anything now, but I feel like doing this

But doing this won't give any justice to the fact that Friday was an epic day

Friday was the outing with the S2Bs at Zehra's condo.

Well, we met up at Orchard with most of us being late

And then took a bus to her condo

Some souls went out in the sun to swim, and the rest including me stayed out of the sun

And then, played pool

Or rather, fooled around the pool table

And then, we tried to rehearse for the Share A Thought skit

Which didn't go as well as I wanted it to

People started to leave after rehearsing, so a few people were left, and we had nothing to do so we played spin the bottle

And then, a crazy truth or dare thing where Afiqah pole and chair danced, and, Zehra revealed something interesting.

Then the four of us went to Zehra's house to watch House of Wax

When I die, I want to be covered with wax and be turned into a wax sculpture before being put in my coffin.

And when it was 9 at night, home.

I don't mind saying it again, I love S2B.

Except for the fact that I got $10 more in money packets than last year, and I got to see grandmother and grandfather after two weeks

Got woken up by Grandmother today.

I don't know how she can wake up at 5, cook for 20 people, and then take the train just to come to my house and put oil on my head.

Of course I bathed and washed it all off

But I still love her for doing that.

Today pretty much was gayshit

Got the usual questions from the relatives

"How did you do for the exams?" "Which Junior College do you want to go into", "What do you want to be"

Of course, I had to lie and answered, "Good." "Catholic Junior College" and, "Accountant".

Anything besides those answers, and they won't be happy

I don't believe they would understand anything I want to do

I don't care if they understand or not, I don't mind doing this alone

But still, I have a cousin who might understand my pain

He's way more indian than me

Not indian as hell, just more indian than me.

And he knows how it feels to have pressure put on you because they lost hope in everyone else.

Something good today was this conversation in the car with mother.

We were at the Car Wash because she thought the car was dirty

Well, it was dirty but not as dirty as I thought she thought it was dirty

Mother: I don't understand why people with cars that are not dirty come here. Their cars are shining.

Me: But your car shines also.

*As if on cue, an insect crawls across the windscreen on the outside*

Mother: *Point at the insect* You see.

Bill is so adorable at 3:18 with his "Forget it, mum!"
His expression is priceless
I'm irrevocably in love with him
And the album Humanoid
Sure, they used playback for two concerts
But they sing live now, and this is why I love them

Amath was effing gayshit
I don't really care about Amath
I hate it
Now that its over with, I'll concentrate on the rest of the subjects
Including Emath
Although, Emath is really at the bottom of my list of importance.

I was supposed to be studying Chemistry
And being very hardworking
But, I got distracted, and depresssed, by the fact that my handwriting is worse on the computer than it is on paper

So I googled "What does untidy handwriting mean" and this site I found made my life better
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20070322142712AAe586D

I shall quote from the comments.

"First. If your handwriting is messy, you are a happy person.
2. You have a short attention span, but love details.
3. You were bored during your early education because the classes were too easy.
4. Do you really want to hear this? You have hang ups! Don't let that bother you though because we all do!
Have a good life and don't ever let 'em know your sweat'n.
Author2go"

I have no idea what hang ups are, but the rest is true
I went to search them on urbandictionary.com
And hang ups are "emotional difficulties or inhibitions"

I also hated Kindergarten and Primary School, waste of my life

It's also true I have a short attention span, or I won't be doing this and I would be studying Chemistry instead

Also,

"Two things:
(1) You knew early on that a tidy handwriting is the sign of long hours wasted on homework...

(2) You have a good memory, which allows you to recall most of the things you penned down, no matter how messy your notes are. Thus you are not under immense pressure to improve your writing."

and

"Anyway, I think people who write messy handwriting are busy people, a little bit perfectionist or organized (not in writing), want to achieve more or ambitious, knowledgeable in many subjects, hardworking, industrious, a leader, semi-outgoing but friendly, intelligent and smart."

This one here also makes sense

"What it means is that you are a person walking a very fine line between sanity and insanity. One little push and you could become the most prolific serial killer the world has and possibly may ever know. Good luck."

I wouldn't mind being Jack the Ripper's prodigy

It would mean I could do whatever I want and never be caught
Still, I feel better about my handwriting now

Also, I heard that singapore flags should be disposed of in a dignified manner

And one such way, IS TO BURN THEM

Which means that if I go around burning singapore flags during national day next year, nobody can do anything to me because it's not against the law

Billdam Fic

Chapter 5

The shortest night he ever had was made the best by the fact that he was sleeping with the most beautiful man in the world on his chest. It was the first time in a long while since Adam hadn't woken up in the middle of the night with dreams of cameras flashing in his face, half-covered faces snapping pictures of him without knowing but not this night, the first night Bill and him spent with one another. It was perfect.

Adam opened his eyes and closed them, blinded by the sun. The air was still chilly from last night. He wanted to go back to sleep, he didn't want the night to end, but he felt Bill stirring. The younger man pushed himself slowly up and off Adam's chest so he could look at Adam properly. Yes it was Adam. It was Adam Lambert.

"Morning, love." Adam slid himself up so he could lean his back on the wall of his bunk and kissed his lover on the lips. He was about to pull away when Bill leaned in even closer, and smiled into the kiss.

"Not yet, I want to continue from last night”. Adam wasted no time in letting his freckled arms snake around Bill's waist, gentle at first, helping him climb up Adam's torso so he was an inch or two above Adam. He caressed Bill’s warm body slowly, feeling his curves underneath his shirt, while not breaking the kiss. Bill's lips moved apart, his tongue begging for entrance. Their mouths locked and re-locked, never completely leaving one another before Bill eventually slid his tongue into Adam's pleading mouth.

He could feel Bill's tongue ring brush against his lower lip as he explored his mouth, sliding over his teeth before meeting Adam's own tongue. The feeling of cold metal against his teeth was not something Adam was used to, but it was not unpleasant either. He lifted Bill's shirt up slightly and traced the line of his hip to his belt buckle, paying extra attention to the marks the star tattoo left on his soft skin before reaching to undo his jeans.

Bill felt Adam fumbling with his belt and leaned back, pausing to do it by himself. Adam threw it to the floor, along with both their shirts. The jewelry Adam still had on from the show was cold from the air, and was like ice on both their skin. No one had bothered to turn on the heater. Bill reached back and took them off, letting it fall on Adam's lap while he buried his hands in Adam's hair and pulled him as close as they could possibly get.

Adam nudged Bill over so he could be on top, and reached for his belt from the floor. He knew how to work it now, and strapped Bill's wrists behind his back to subdue him so he could have the young frontman all to himself. Adam shifted his lips downwards to cover Bill’s neck with hickeys, stopping only once to listen to the restrained singer moaning softly, and moved his finger down Bill's chest and stomach, tracing the line he made with his mouth. He followed the wet trail back up again to stare at his lover’s eyes, now dark pools of chocolate and whispered into his ear,

"I really want you, Bill."

He shivered as Adam’s warm breath touched his skin and replied in short gasps.

“So do I, Adam,”

I activated my Facebook to find a quiz

Because I'm bored right now and it's a Friday night.

And then of course, I deactivated it again

I refuse to keep my Facebook

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you

1. I really do drink blood, just not as often as I'd like to. Of course I only take blood from one person.

2. I hate to go out except for things pertaining to theatre and with people I like. If I do go out, I prefer it to be by myself. I have everything I need at home anyway.

3. First thing I notice about people are their fingernails. I don't like ugly fingernails. Nice fingernails are hot.

4. I don't like colors. They're disturbing, they disturb my eyes. I prefer to be in a world where everything is black.

5. I like The Amanda Show, and All That, and Kenan and Kel.

6. I love potatoes. I will eat anything with potatoes because potatoes make the world a better place.

7. Marilyn Manson is very, very important to me. He is one of my loved ones and when people insult him, I get really pissed. Of course if it's by accident I don't really mind, but I'll bash you if you say anything bad about him.

8. I have an unusual obsession with The Nightmare Before Christmas.

9. I want a video camera. A proper one so I can start filming my scripts. And then I would require actors as well. But, I will have to wait for Christmas.

10. The song I can play best on my keyboard would be Intermission by Panic! at the Disco.

11. I brush my fingernails everyday. I take better care of them then I take care of my teeth.

12. I look at mirrors but I don't look into them because I'm scared of what I might see.

13. Apart from the bloody school uniform, I only wear black.

14. I like defying authority.

15. I enjoy it when singers use vibrato in their singing, especially when classic rock singers like Freddie do it.

16. I'm very superstitious. I got it from my father, he's very superstitious as well.

17. I like Red Wine better than any other alcohol. Not because it's anti-aging, it just tastes stronger and more distinct.

18. I said I like potatoes before, but I shall elaborate. Potatoes are the best vegetables on earth. French fries don't do them enough justice. If I every marry, the person has to have full experience with cooking with potatoes.

19. I love Germany. I love Germany so much, that if there was a war between Germany and the rest of the world, I would be on Germany's side.

20. I love bats.

21. I cry a lot. I cry in front of people, but i cry more when I'm by myself.

22. I only believed in love at first sight, but part of me is afraid of getting too close to people for fear that I might fall for them. I've only completely fallen for someone once ever.

23. If I had an idol, it would be Death. It ends people's misery, makes them cry, everyone waits for it, many people fear it, it rules their lives, and they all get it.

24. I, like my dad, want to go to the Himalayas when I'm old and I retire, and sit there. And of course, meditate.

25. I believe in true love.

I signed up for the Writing a Story workshop on October 24th
I wanted to sign up for Haresh Sigma's Bitesize: Introduction to Playwriting workshop
I remember meeting him once while Volunteering for Past Caring
I thought he was so cool, but scary, but very nice
Still, I really wanted to go for the workshop but unfortunately the website says "Children below the age of 16 shall not be admitted.".

Hello excuse me
No. 1, I am not to be classified under "Children"
I am very mature for my age thank your very much, Kns
And No. 2, age does not matter in art
And writing is an art
So of course I'm pissed

Glamberts for the win

Ratna and I both love Rachel Ray and found her toasting walnuts very funny

So I watched Rachel Ray today

As I do most of the time, and she is so cute I swear, and, she can cook, and, she's hot

She was toasting walnuts for dinner

Which was very wrong because she kept saying "Nuts" and then the oven and the oils and god knows what

But still, I'm in love with her

In fact, I would marry her if she wasn't married

The above video made me and Sham almost die laughing during Chem yesterday
I've watched the The Glass Menagerie movie so many times many times and it is one of the most excellent pieces of low-budget crap I've seen in a very long time
It's good thing because the book itself is made to be crap, so they adapted it onto screen very well

I want to get a distinction for Literature badly

But since, she came, it's been virtually impossible

English Paper 1 was like many other English paper 1s
I chose the topic Charisma so I wrote about a woman who went around in every city and convinced people to kill themselves to redeem themselves and be forgiven for their sins
Sinning one last time to rid themselves of all the sins they've sinned
My protagonist was an antagonist, but she was female
Like Kahu in The Whale Rider
But I hate Kahu. I like Nanny Flowers much better

And for Tamil I chose the topic "Describe a person you want to meet"
Of course, I could only write about one person
I wrote about Marilyn Manson
Maybe he shall inspire the marker of the paper like he has inspired me
And I'll get good marks for Tamil, for once

Well that was what I hoped for the last time

Ms Shalini was coming and reading what I wrote and I swear she was laughing
I was scared she would see all the BS I wrote so I wrote on my draft paper first so I could copy it down on the real paper when she went away
And then she asked me what I was doing
So I told her I was drafting, and she laughed again
The two weirdos Niveetha and Sarv were drawing during the paper-.-

But what do they expect when they give us to much time and they know we get bored of Tamil easily

Anyway I didn't sleep at all last night but I slept today.

From 5 till 8 and now I'm tired again.

I miss watching The Nanny

I have a sad life.

No I am not alive
I've finished dying so now.
But I exist because I am not yet dead, but I would die to be alive.
The correct term would be that I fell into a hole
The deepest darkest hole in the ocean, and I made people dig it even deeper and then fell into it

But I do not glitter in the sun, unfortunately.
Victoria's Secret is having a sale on shimmer lotion but I do not want it.
I prefer to shimmer in the sun naturally.
I know I'm a nutcase, but final years are in two days
Which gives me every right to be a nutcase~

And, if I say I hate singapore
I mean it, I hate singapore
I will not stay here, wtf no.
You can ask me all the questions you want, no matter how stupid my reply is
I'll leave everything, friends, family, lover to get out of this hellhole
I said it and i'll say it again right now, I hate singapore

Say what you want, that my dreams are illusions
And I am living in them like Amanda does but i'll tell you first, right now
I'll die for those dreams
And once I do, I promise you I'll give you the horrible death you deserve for calling my dreams illusions.

I'll personally come over to your house with a chainsaw and an army of the dead and then i'll see how much you revere your freedom of speech.

Fuck you

I would make it clear that rap is not at the top of my list
And I respect very few rappers and R&B artists
People like Mariah Carey,Usher, Ne-Yo, Fergie, Kanye West, Rihanna and Chris Brown can all go to hell for all I care
But I respect a few of them.

I respect Beyonce because her music is good, and she has accomplished a lot
I don't know her but from what I've seen of her, she is a nice person
I am far from wanting to be like her, and I don't idolize her either, but I'm glad she's around
I respect Timbaland also because he's an excellent musician
He is an excellent producer after all

And Janet Jackson and Michael Jackson have my respect of course
They deserve all the respect they can and cannot get
Justin Timberlake has my respect but he would have more if his songs weren't all about finding hot girls and stuff
I have nothing against finding hot girls but still,
His songs don't make me feel better about my sad life, or other people about their sad lives

I used to hate Eminem
And when he insulted Nick Cannon and Mariah Carey I was so pissed
I wasn't pissed that he insulted Mariah Carey, I was only pissed he insulted Nick Cannon
I used to watch the Nick Cannon Show on Nickelodeon, good times...
But still.
Eminem speaks the truth and puts meaning into his songs and put his songs out there
I respect anybody who does that regardless of whether their music is good or not

Anyway, I'm going off to pressurize Xue Ling into doing extremely well for English~

I want everybody to do well for English and Literature

And the Chemistry Paperclip Clan are going to do well for all our Sciences, including Chem

The video title is perfect for the person this fanvideo is for
One of the youtube comments in another video said

"I have listened to Manson for 16 years and I can tell you that this new album reminds me of the old days and his performance was awesome at Mayhem this year. I was not impressed with the show I saw in 2007, depression and drug use can affect one's performance, his voice is back and so is his fire... HE HAS TWIGGY BACK GUYS THEY MADE THIS BAND WHAT IT IS TODAY!!!"

He's been making music for longer than I am old.
I have almost no clue how his old music was because I only started listening to him when i was 10
But still.

I'm scared, for art.
I'm horrible at art, I know
If I don't do well this year, i'll be asked to drop it
And I don't want to drop it.
Not just art, I need to do well for the final years, badly.
And I need to improve in Emath, and Bio

I'm so scared, I'm starting to work hard.
I don't want to retain.